in my heart i feel that i'm losing it. my natural high of motivation is entirely out of my system, and at this point i'm feeling the same depression i had over edmund. my depression comes from the negativity that i in-take, it consumes me, and it's keeps me down. i can't run from it anymore. my heart, body and mind won't accept that kind of decision. right now, at least i can bare as much as my mind and soul can take until i lose it. i want so much. so much it hurts because there is something i can never have. i have nothing to lose and so much to gain. i love you.

jesus christ!!! i love you too!
Posted by: gerl797 | 10/12/2007 at 08:45 AM
i love you my love. heh heh..you should check out my neighborhood there are a lot of arashi fanatics. i miss you very much.
Posted by: sweet royal [tea] | 10/14/2007 at 02:25 PM